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I've willingly read some nasty stuff (i don't mean yaoi) and i would never, for no matter what, do it again. It haunts me every day and i can't forget it or forgive myself that I've enjoyed reading it. Is there a way to forget? Or maybe i deserve it? I don't think i can bear with this thought any longer and I can't tell anyone about it because i feel like i will disgust them.
Also have you ever been in a situation like that?

I am really sorry if there are any mistakes but im not native;;

I honestly for the love of GOD do not understand why people like Killing Stalking. It’s only popular because its “edgy” and the hype train brought it up mainstream and it brings a bad rep to the ALREADY bad rep of our yaoi/webtoon community. I can name so much better ones that actually have psychological aspects to it, like Warehouse. IT ALSO HAS A PLOT. I finished Killing Stalking and I might need bleach for my eyes. Not to mention, Killing Stalking art looks like shit. The characters are shit. Bum is literally a fucking rat and Sangwoo is the entire circus. So please. PLEASE. Enlighten me about why you like this shit show of a webtoon so much. I would like to know.