Have A Bestfriend

Actually I don't care about best friends because I has a group of friends in class and at my dorm so I consider myself is random friends bcuz I believe if i had a best friend I scare if she/he will leave me alone..
Well that's why I love being random than has best friend

I had two best friends in elementary school, one of them kinda just drifted away from me in middle school, I think she thought I was a frivolous kid since I asked her a question that wasn't about studying, she just told me that we need to focus on out work and snubbed me, i think odd reconnecting with her during our time in middle school but it seemed like she just didn't want to be my friend anymore. My other from elementary school recconnected in middle school as well, and we bonded again, but she became excessively clingy and a little controlling then I went to another school and we never talked again, I don't have a best friend or even consistent friends, not that I mind, but sometimes I feel like I have to have one, i was just wondering if there are any other people without best friends.