Lgbt

Ok so now I'm feeling really sad and angry and frustrated and I don't know what to do maybe I need advice but I just need to get it off my chest.

Okay so as the title says I hate online school. Why? Because I'm really close to not passing this year. And it's not about grades, it's about begin late. I'm late usually because of this piece trash teams (teams is app where I have lessons) sometimes it just doesn't work but I still have marked in the school journal that I was late or that I wasn't in class. And I have a lot of it. (30+ in total) or sometimes I'm just asleep. I'm scared. And I feel like if I'm not going to pass I'm going to die, like there is no poin of living anymore. And I really feel like I'm going to kill myself if I'm not going to pass. I know that I sound like a troll , but I'm serious I feel like I'm going to kill myself but I don't know how to get myself together.I don't want to die, but I feel like I will need to it I won't pass .ik it sounds dumb.How can I motivate myself, stop begin sleepy , and be focused on keeping track of time?



Sorry for bad grammar

So I am severely anti-social but I still end up in scenarios in which I have to talk to people I don't know. Because I am so terrified of talking to people, when I do have to speak I can come across as strained and all that jazz. Pretty much there are instances where my tone doesn't match my intent. I had a run-in with this problem today when I was talking to a new college professor of mine and apparently, I sounded hella rude... So I screwed up :/
It explains why he sounded so rude when talking to me today. Now I feel like I need to apologize and shiz but apologizing=more socializing=DEATH. I'll apologize regardless though. I hate when this happens!

Anyway, I was just wondering if anyone else has any stories about social anxiety or just you socially screwing yourself over.