Taking Or Took Igcse

Idk I feel really lost rn. I hate how the government is dealing with our exams I feel like they are pushing us to fail our exams and I feel like I’m gonna be a disappointment to my whole family once my results come my sister is smart and got good grades and does really good courses and like she got hers last year so I feel like if I fail my parents will just put the blame on me and this suffocating year with all these lockdowns and changes if plans has left me feeling like no matter what I do nothing will change. Idk I had to say something as when I get stressed I normally just bottle it all up until it comes out inna different way which leaves me neglecting my own self so I decided to try something new and talk about it instead as I don’t wanna deal with not being able to sleep due to stress maybe someone else feels the same ?