I'm not sure if my mom is very toxic

She kicks me out anytime shes in a bad mood....then when she needs something from me she acts all nice. I told her I'm scared of leave the house because of social anxiety and she tells me to go find a homeless shelter to live at. She also told me to go kill my self when I told her I didn't want to be alive. But after all these interactions she just buys me something and acts all nice the day after. She makes feel bad when I get angry with her or don't do my chores (she acts like im the maid and babysitter). She a single parent and imagrant so I feel like shes been treated worse then I ever have and don't like feeling this way but I can't help it. My family says I should be grate full I have mom like her.