This guy was my schoolmate in highschool. I don't know if he remember this face of mine. He's got the cool aura, a genius, a pokerface, tightlipped type but you rarely see him smile. and he's really a nice guy, says my friend's classmate which is also his classmate. sounds like a manga character right? ╮(￣▽￣)╭ At first he's just another cool guy, admiring him like my favorite shounen manga character. but I never really thought that this feelings will eventually grow. And now, He's also my schoolmate in a University! lucky me! (๑•ㅂ•)و✧ Every time I saw him, it's as if the time stops. it's just like the two of us moving in a slow motion. flustered. the blood rushes to my head, blushing so hard, my heartbeat is really fast..tingling with excitement. I keep on covering my mouth because I got a wide grin on my face! my eye's totally glued to his face, ( I nearly banged my head to the pole that time! XD) I keep on thinking about him every goddamn day and I even dream of him sometimes. damn this is extreme!! At first I thought this just a weird physical reaction. I even add him as a friend and yas we're friends! It's stalking time! and damn we have same thing we like in common. ( T v T ) One day, this friend of mine noticed this kind of face that I made then later, I explained it to her this kind of feeling and Bam! girl you're in love!!! I've been inlove with him for 5 years until now. REEEEAAAALLY!?! Σ(⊙ o ⊙ ) I didn't realize that I'm already fallin in love this long. though I love watching romance anime since a long long ago. I'm so slow. (￣∇￣") One day, I plan to convey my feelings to him. but nah, the reality flashes to my eyes. more like I'm being pressured by my nega side. I don't want to see his disgusted face. I'm scared to hear his words of rejection. I'm scared of getting rejected. I really imagined what kind of face he's making. With his good looks and brain, of course girls are happily flocking to him! but I know he's not seeing someone right now. heh ✧ (▰˘◡˘▰) He's like a big, lone star that I could only admire him from afar. I don't need close relationship with him. with this kind nega side of mine, I can't even get close to him. One day, he's got his girl of dreams, have a happy family, a happy life, I'm satisfied. And I'm going to bring this dumb f*cking feelings to my grave. R.I.P.
