*sighs yeah

First was when I was 9, i think. We're celebrating my cousin's birthday at a public pool. There were a lot of kids there playing and my cousin's having fun too. And, tbh, since I was a kid I felt inferior to others because I'm a half japanese and half filipina. I also got friends there but not like really tight. Anyway, I don't know how to swim so I always have that donut thing with me. I swam over to the giant fountain mushroom where people i knew were. My friend showed me a trick with a donut—like getting you sit your butt inside that circle—so I did it too. Only to find out that it was much larger than me so, I slipped right through it. I tried to catch my donut but it was so far. I was drowning, and my friend eyed me then just left. I saw an adult who was by the way are with us—but she fucking stared at me—asking "What's wrong?". I EVEN FUCKING GRIPPED HER KNEES BUT SHE FUCKING MOVED AWAY FROM ME. God, I wasd drowning really bad. I tried calling for help. I was looking for my mom. Then, luckily my Aunt saw me, she saved me. After that, I didn't returned. But, I love water so, I just played by myself and with my donut—and moved to an adult pool. Someone assigned to watch me by that time though. The second was when I was in high school. It's a get together party with my classmates. We played and have fun. There were like 4 people—girls who didnt know how to swim. Then, they tried to teach us. But still I can't. Our bad boy in our group lifted me and swam to the deepest part of the pool. I was nearly loosing my wits because of that. And he left me. And I was drowning again. I tried to swim like how they taught me and I managed to come across to where my classmates are. I gripped her hands and called her name. But, she flicked her hands away and swamfar from me. Fuck, I tried to relax myself but I'm still drowning. Damn, I was hoping that they would help me. But, I just watched the moon as I drown—again. Someone tug me up and I saw my friends sister. She said she saw me drowning while taking pictures and she jumped to save me.
BIG SIIIIGHS, THE BETRAYAL BTCH MY GOD. I confronted the girl who flicked her hands away, she thought that I was just joking and trying to play tug. The fuck?
Sorry, if it's too long.