Ever since I was little I've hated shopping for clothes, main reason is girl clothes are stereotypical; frilly, colourful and- to me personally- sickening. Plenty times I've wanted to be a boy cuz their clothes are soooo cool! P.S you don't have to worry about too much colour or your parents telling you that you have to wear a dress from time to time or you can't have your hair cut very short cuz you weren't born a boy. So it was lucky I had a brother, we swapped clothes he wore the colourful crap and I wore jeans and camouflage pattern jumper. Countless times my parents have said me and him were born as the wrong gender, I mean he's effeminate while I'm masculine. But being a girl is okay... I guess...
Mm, I can relate to the "stereotipical girly clothes " and I personally despised going shopping as well. I've been uncomfortable with my own body my whole life, until I discovered that I was a transmale. Looking back, I never did fit in with other girls and I've always surrounded myself with boys. I'd steal my brothers toys and clothes because it made me feel more confident. I also enjoyed lots of sports, I was a lot more aggressive and competitive than the girls. I had many crushes on boys and girls too (I'm also Bisexual). Back then, I used to pray every night that God would turn me into a boy. Looking at all my guy friends made me jealous of their body. It made me hate my body. I felt embarrassed of my body. Once I do come out, I want to be in therapy and possibly take hormones then top surgery. I'm doing this for myself. To make me trully happy and comfortable with my body.
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Mm, I can relate to the "stereotipical girly clothes " and I personally despised going shopping as well. I've been uncomfortable with my own body my whole life, until I discovered that I was a transmale. Looking back, I never did fit in with other girls and I've always surrounded myself with boys. I'd steal my brothers toys and clothes because it made me feel more confident. I also enjoyed lots of sports, I was a lot more aggressive and competitive than the girls. I had many crushes on boys and girls too (I'm also Bisexual). Back then, I used to pray every night that God would turn me into a boy. Looking at all my guy friends made me jealous of their body. It made me hate my body. I felt embarrassed of my body. Once I do come out, I want to be in therapy and possibly take hormones then top surgery. I'm doing this for myself. To make me trully happy and comfortable with my body.