Well I mean yeah ig you can say that

Tbh I dont really actually have friends, I more or less see them as acquaintances and for them they probably see me as someone to go to, they have their own friends they spend more time with. I have trouble making friends, but people usually see my as "easy to approach or talk to" I'm sorta like that "therapist" friend. They come to me when (sometimes) when they need to talk or are struggling. Throughout my childhood I've never really had good friends, I've also lost hope in friends and I blocked all that from me (ig some sort of trauma) I dont actually know the right way to be "friends", like how does it all work, what's the right way to be friends. These friends would usually drift apart or just leave. After elementary I gave up on the term "bestfriends" I feel like it's not true and everyone would leave or drift apart, I tried my best, I tried twice but they didnt work out. In high school was the second but it didnt work out. In every friendship I tried and tried but I always felt lonely and an outcast. I was basically the third wheel or just simply there when they needed me. I dont mind too much since I'm pretty used to it but I would like to have friends, it does get lonely and I want to talk to others about my interests and their and such but I dont know how to communicate well, but oh well it's okay, I'll learn some day. (I actually want to see a psychologist about my internal problems but I'm scared of being judged negatively)


** I noticed this was abit sadder than I had intended it to be sorry, I didnt mean to sound like this. Here I'll give you chuckling suga 'v'