RANT!! Ignore this plz

BEING OBSESSIVE AND POSSESSIVE SUCKS FUCKING ASS!
They are arguably two of the worse personality traits someone can have. It is not possible for me to have a normal crush. When I am interested in someone I get obsessed with them and it is fucking exhausting. My mind is consumed with thoughts about them all the time. When I don’t know them my brain makes up what they look like, how they act, how they sound like, what kinda things we would do, the places we will go and makes me fall for them even more which in turn makes me even more obsessed. And I want to know EVERYTHING about them and what they are doing 24/7. Then thats when the possession comes. I don’t want no body talking to them or them talking to anyone else besides me. My brain considers them MINE even when they aren't which leads to heart break. I want them all to myself. Then after a bit I get fucking sick of them, bored and want them to leave me alone. This is why I don’t date, have friends or have a "crush". I hate it. I hate it. Now I have a "crush" on someone online and it's the same thing. I'm literally all possessive and obsessed. Stalking their page. Being upset that they don't follow me and that they follow other people. What is the worst part is I don't know how old they are. Please God! Let them be at least 18!!