I lost 3 family members within a year (2020) and it’s hard for me to tell anyone how I’m truly feeling because they all say “ OMG! Me too, covid sucks I wanted to hangout w/ my friendzz.” But I literally don’t remember much abt covid because I was so deeply depressed and alone with anxiety, I still cry every night and have night terrors abt my passed family members. Recently I’ve started to develop anger issues and the only way I can calm down is by scratching my arm or breaking something. I’m not okay and I try not to overexaggerate but I’m just tired of this pain and I want it to just all end. It’s really hard for me to genuinely smile, but when I don’t it makes people annoyed and not wanna hangout w/ me because I can’t be happy or excited abt anything. I get severely triggered by many things and that makes it hard for me to be in public. My mentality is ruined and I have such horrible insomnia that I can’t fall asleep until 5am. My sister was fired from her job due to her health conditions and so she couldn’t pay rent for her apartment, that led her to staying in my room. She’s so messy and doesn’t clean up after herself, she’s so insensitive and plays her music out loud anytime she wants but she won’t listen to me when I kindly ask her to turn it down. I have 9 siblings that I’m currently living with and I’m the one that’s in charge of doing most of the chores and it drives me crazy because no one actually makes an effort in cleaning up after themselves so I have to. The only time I can be alone is if I sit in the bathroom late at night. I just want peace and quiet. That’s all, thanks for reading. I truly hope all of you are doing well<3
I relate to what you are saying, this mentality “covid sucks and everyone feel like shit bcz of it” kinda downplays all the others issues we have. When everyone is struggling then your own problems are not seen as important, if you get what I mean? When you say that you are not alright, people automatically answer “I know right this situation right now is crazy and hard to live with”. When I hear that, I just give up on elaborating bcz I can tell they can’t listen much. I lost someone too and even if it wasn’t recently I am still not over I considered this person my only family. I am also depressed, it’s been more than a year, and I don’t know how to overcome it. I have extensive knowledge about psychology bcz I read a lot about it, yet the irony is that it doesn’t help me at all. Anyway, I just wanted to say that you are not alone and I send you all my support
This makes so much sense and I completely understand. It’s difficult to “heal” from losing a loved one. I don’t know if it’s like this for all people but for me it has created a void inside of me that I can only temporarily fill. I believe that once someone you love passes, you always have that pain and you can never fully overcome it. I’m glad you replied, I know I’m not alone on this matter but sometimes I feel like I need to be reassured. Thank you, and you also have my support. I truly hope things get better for you in time.♡
i know that you really going through hard time if you feel like somewhat you want to hurt yourself try to just write it down and just obliterated that paper to pieces maybe burn it if you can. just hang in there for people that you love. there is people that still love you. and i know you can do it! (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
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I relate to what you are saying, this mentality “covid sucks and everyone feel like shit bcz of it” kinda downplays all the others issues we have. When everyone is struggling then your own problems are not seen as important, if you get what I mean? When you say that you are not alright, people automatically answer “I know right this situation right now is crazy and hard to live with”. When I hear that, I just give up on elaborating bcz I can tell they can’t listen much.
I lost someone too and even if it wasn’t recently I am still not over I considered this person my only family.
I am also depressed, it’s been more than a year, and I don’t know how to overcome it. I have extensive knowledge about psychology bcz I read a lot about it, yet the irony is that it doesn’t help me at all.
Anyway, I just wanted to say that you are not alone and I send you all my support
This makes so much sense and I completely understand. It’s difficult to “heal” from losing a loved one. I don’t know if it’s like this for all people but for me it has created a void inside of me that I can only temporarily fill. I believe that once someone you love passes, you always have that pain and you can never fully overcome it. I’m glad you replied, I know I’m not alone on this matter but sometimes I feel like I need to be reassured. Thank you, and you also have my support. I truly hope things get better for you in time.♡
if you want someone to talk to you can talk to me :)
That means so much, I appreciate it. Though sometimes I have trouble when talking to people:((
i know that you really going through hard time if you feel like somewhat you want to hurt yourself try to just write it down and just obliterated that paper to pieces maybe burn it if you can. just hang in there for people that you love. there is people that still love you. and i know you can do it! (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
I’ll try that, thank you so much for the advice