I've had a couple small crushes before but this summer is the first time I had a big one on my friend. We're both in this friend group and I get along great with everyone but they can be kind of childish sometimes, and we're the only two who have deep talks. We were just strictly friends and I wasn't even into him AT ALL but all of a sudden he kind of changed in my eyes. He's tall, has a deep voice, and has really brown eyes. And we can joke around each other. I just really enjoy being around him. Problem is, around the time I was starting to realize my feelings for him he started dating one of my friends. Oh boy now was that 5 weeks of an emotional rollercoaster. My entire friend group was cheering on the relationship as they were the first to start dating, so I couldn't really tell anyone. And I was conflicted too between my feelings and his. Also the girl who he started dating is the SWEETEST girl you will ever meet, I could never hate her. But she didn't like him like that. She spent more time talking to me than to him when we went out (lol). And me and him continued to have this weird energy between us. /But ya girl ain't no homewrecker lmao. I kept my distance. In hindsight I think if I hadn't hidden my feelings (and tried to act so cool) and pushed the whole "we're just friends!" thing to him, we would've ended up together. So if anything, this has taught me to be more honest! In the end I came to the conclusion: I can't control anyone's feelings. He makes the choices he does. And I want to continue being his friend. So I decided to let my feelings go. They broke up after a month, but I'm still going to keep it platonic with him. I think this is just a case where I got mixed up between the lines of friendship and love! And next time I like someone, who knows, I might just take a risk and tell em
