Even tho everything feels like a bother, I don’t think I wanna die. It might just be that I don’t want to deal with things that are set for me and require my concentration like school. The annoyance in having to do so many things that I don’t want to just outweighs my will to live. So if a chance comes up that makes it look like I didn’t mean for it to happen, I won’t be begging for my life.
