Advice

Hey so I had this best friend back in 7th grade and we were best friends until the end of 10th grade and to be honest she cut me off because I was toxic. I would always ghost her and do so many fake things to her because it was one sided and I was going through so much stuff in my life and I hated everything. (this does not justify anything im just stupid) The day she decided to cut me off was the day that I realized damn... she really was important :( I tried to go back to her saying sorry and she said she doesnt want to talk to me. I have deceived her so many times so I do understand. I have lost all my friends due to me treating them bad because I didnt even care about friendship before. Its been 2 years, do you guys think I should talk to her. I miss her and she was a good friend but I was not ready for commitment