Okay, so, I know a few guys with fetishes and kinks. My ex had this butt fetish, bdsm, stuff like that. But I know this one dude! Who's like super into bdsm that he had a tasor! A friend told me this. So the dude was having seggs with this girl and her tasored her!!! In the butthole!! He also did something else but I don't remember.
Yeah. I think we go thru the same thought process about sex as anyone else. Like back then, if you told me to read anything bad, I would probably freak the fuck out. But now that I've gotten older, I'm unfazed by it. Like I will legit have no experience reading what you recommend me. Send me something horrible to read and I will tell you my thoughts on it.
I remember reading some manga where the dude is like what you hate the most is what you’ll love the most. I can’t remember which one, it’s on the tip of my tongue but anyways it’s kinda my vibe. The sht I found the grossest become what did it for me the most. Like I used to think giving head would be so nasty and balls were revolting. Ff yrs later and I’m getting off on being teabagged. I think it’s all the shit I found to taboo later become my kink. I was really repressed for a long time even while being a legit whore. Like I did sex work but no one ever made me come. But I dealt with a lot of fcked up sht when I was young and it kinda warped me. So it led to me being into stuff I used to find gross. Like anal, getting jizzed on by more then one guy. It’s ironic that now I get my sexuality and am more comfortable with it, I’ve decided to be celibate bc I don’t have the time or energy to have any relationships. I also realized I can’t get into it with ppl I’m not comfortable with, but I don’t feel like having the kind of relationship that leads to that comfort level. So hook ups won’t work. I even gave up on friends. Ppl have always let me down so now I only trust a handful of fam. I’m friendly with my kid’s dad and his gf, but he’s like fam.
When it comes to kinks and fetishes, I'm very open to anything. I will do it, whether or not I like it or not. I will probably continue to do it. When I was 16 or 17, I was sexually open to have sex with anyone, and it really opened up my sexually and what I liked. But I wasnt really getting off to anyone cause it was boring and I didnt feel like I got to experience and sexual satisfaction. I was using sex to cope with trauma, I was in a really bad state of mind that no one helped me and just used me. And then, my baby daddy came back into my life. We got back together and did everything, down and dirty. He helped me realize my sexually. And after being with him for a year, i didnt feel anything after that. And now, I'm so unfazed, I dont know how to react to alot of human emotions. Even when it comes down to when someone's flirting with me, I will not see it. I just think that they're just being friendly to me. I cant cry, it hard to cry. I cant really feel anything. I barely even have friends, only like 2. But now in life, I'm pretty content with it. I've been celibate for years now, I have a kid I'm happy with and I get along with her dad just fine.
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Yeah. I think we go thru the same thought process about sex as anyone else. Like back then, if you told me to read anything bad, I would probably freak the fuck out. But now that I've gotten older, I'm unfazed by it. Like I will legit have no experience reading what you recommend me. Send me something horrible to read and I will tell you my thoughts on it.
I remembered: it’s ten count. That’s how I am. I also have clinical OCD so I get Shirotani
I remember reading some manga where the dude is like what you hate the most is what you’ll love the most. I can’t remember which one, it’s on the tip of my tongue but anyways it’s kinda my vibe. The sht I found the grossest become what did it for me the most. Like I used to think giving head would be so nasty and balls were revolting. Ff yrs later and I’m getting off on being teabagged. I think it’s all the shit I found to taboo later become my kink. I was really repressed for a long time even while being a legit whore. Like I did sex work but no one ever made me come. But I dealt with a lot of fcked up sht when I was young and it kinda warped me. So it led to me being into stuff I used to find gross. Like anal, getting jizzed on by more then one guy. It’s ironic that now I get my sexuality and am more comfortable with it, I’ve decided to be celibate bc I don’t have the time or energy to have any relationships. I also realized I can’t get into it with ppl I’m not comfortable with, but I don’t feel like having the kind of relationship that leads to that comfort level. So hook ups won’t work. I even gave up on friends. Ppl have always let me down so now I only trust a handful of fam. I’m friendly with my kid’s dad and his gf, but he’s like fam.
When it comes to kinks and fetishes, I'm very open to anything. I will do it, whether or not I like it or not. I will probably continue to do it. When I was 16 or 17, I was sexually open to have sex with anyone, and it really opened up my sexually and what I liked. But I wasnt really getting off to anyone cause it was boring and I didnt feel like I got to experience and sexual satisfaction. I was using sex to cope with trauma, I was in a really bad state of mind that no one helped me and just used me. And then, my baby daddy came back into my life. We got back together and did everything, down and dirty. He helped me realize my sexually. And after being with him for a year, i didnt feel anything after that.
And now, I'm so unfazed, I dont know how to react to alot of human emotions. Even when it comes down to when someone's flirting with me, I will not see it. I just think that they're just being friendly to me. I cant cry, it hard to cry. I cant really feel anything. I barely even have friends, only like 2.
But now in life, I'm pretty content with it. I've been celibate for years now, I have a kid I'm happy with and I get along with her dad just fine.
Sorry if things are jumbled.