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Got new trauma haha lmao XD
I just have a minor panic attack when i'm on the computer Even worse when its taking so long to open the browser Why you may ask? Because my mom screamed at me and told me to go onto the computer because i forgot to tell her that the report cards were coming out I have really bad memory So i got onto the computer and started clicking the browser and it wasn't opening and that made me even more scared and i wanted to hurry (oh yeah she hit me before this) so i started speed-clicking the browser to the point i may as well be a human auto-clicker Anyway That's over and she apologized so its all good The problem is when i got onto the computer to go to animeflix i started having a mini panic attack cause i remembered how scared i was and started crying I tried to remind myself that its over and she's not angry at me anymore Sadly it didn't work But it stopped when my mom said she loved me so that reassured me that she wasn't angry at me anymore But i still got new trauma
"sorry I hit you, I love you" is probably close to what she said isn't it? Don't believe her it's a shitty manipulation tactic that most parents use mine does the same thing she uses "I love you" as a consoling measure but it's not true if she did love you she wouldn't scream or hit at you over a fucking report card I'm guessing she's also did th...... 1 reply
this is really bad and toxic for your mental health. your mom keeps acting on edge one moment, and then turning all nice the next, which could lead to serious trust issues in the future or even now. she shouldn't be hitting you no matter how big the issue is, abuse is never ok and won't solve the problem. if you need help or need to talk, you can a...... 2 reply
Clearly some people didn't notice i was being sarcastic and trying to make a joke out of this to calm myself down
I flinch when i get screamed at
I'm also sensitive at random times
trust issues
I learned that physical discipline is not normal (my whole life is a lie)
I also learned how to tolerate the pain from the back-scratcher or the belt
I als...... 2 reply
I can relate..My dad would always say "Wtf is wrong with you?Ya got a loose screw on your head or sum??" But im surprised that i no longer react to things like that because im used to it... my teacher would always say "the reason why they r hitting you is because they love you. And you're being stubborn.." and i always used to believe that.. but no...... 1 reply
Time to put your mom in jail.
I am so sorry that has happened to you bestie. Maybe find someone you would like to talk to about this, just to get it off your chest. I’m always happy to help, and you can DM me at any time. That toxic behavior is not acceptable, and you should get out of there as soon as possible.
Here, some reassurance, I hope...... reply
oh that trauma been around for me long time, only that its i lost my skating card, i didnt practice enough, yadda yadda, she hit and screamed at me so many times I lost count. I stopped forgiving her long ago cuz apologies doesn't fix the amount of blood, sweat and tears I had to shed 2 reply
Lol this is so common in my country(not the panic attack part) but the hitting and all.My mom would just give me a full blown slap while I just woke up from sleep as a joke lmao.And then laugh at me for crying over it.I can imagine my mom laughing at how I'm "being dramatic" if I ever had a panic attack.
I don't think I'll find a single person arou...... reply
