Since this is anonymous I'll get it off my chest. When I was about 5, still 4, my grandparents had to babysit me my brother and two other cousins. This guy that is very close to my family, lived with my grandparents. Everyone thought he was the nicest guy and very kind, even me. One day he asked if I wanted to play with him and I said sure so he would pick me up and swing me around. It was super fun and I felt special because he told me not to tell anyone so I didn't. He kept repeating this cycle for days until one day he asked if I can do him a favor. I don't even remember much of what I said but one thing lead to another.
He would take me into his room take off my bottom clothes and rub his thing between my private part. He would also touch my thighs and do thigh sex on me. This didn't stop and went on for weeks but as it went on, I started to hate it and feel as if something was wrong. I would try my best to ignore him and when he asked to play, I would let him swing me around and then run back to my brother and cousins. I kept this up until he gave up and wouldn't call me anymore.
He doesn't live with my grandparents anymore since he moved away but I hate that when my family/extended family members say good things about him and say that they miss him, I feel so disgusted and angry but I am so afraid to tell anyone. One day I would love to tell my family about this but I am afraid of their judgement and I don't want my mother to be sad because I know she'll be angry at my grandparents and herself for not taking care of me and I just want everyone to be happy.
Remember this, your parents will only be upset they couldnt help you. But they need to know. Sooner or later they will have to find out, and it will be tough for them to hear for sure, but NOWHERE near as tough as what you had to go through.
You need to have the people you care about the most know your pain and trauma for you to heal from it, also it must be very very disturbing for you to hear people praise this man when you know what he did to you. Your story is NOT a burden, it is something that happens to a lot more people than we think, and the only reason your parents will be upset will be that they did not find out sooner. I know you think they will be in a lot of pain, but believe me when I say that if this hasn't happened to them, they can't imagine your complex feelings on it, and can only take it at face value. Do what you need to do to heal!
It was never your fault ok....it that stupid prick looking ass fault for seeing a little kid and thinking it was ok to do such a thing...it made be hard but it's always best to reveal the evil things that have been done in secret....imagine that guy comes one day u would feel very disgusted and God forbid he try to do something similar it would be difficult for u to reach out to someone since u haven't told anyone about it...and we definitely dont want that thing to carry a good name in your family..ok. muschamp love girl
Sincerely tell your family want happend. It' a grave crime, it's pedophilia. This guy can (and probably) do this to another child. Tell to your family is the best thing to protect his others victims. You don't have to be afraid, NOTHING is your fault. And if you're too afraid of your family, go to the police and tell them, they can help you. I totally anderstand your situation, me too I was a victim of pedophilia. I transfer to you all my courage. Ps: sorry my english is really bad, I'm not a native, I have a low vocabulary.
Im so sorry this happened to you OP. None of this is your fault and i hope one day you can confide in your mother and tell her the truth. Im sure it would upset her, but im also positive that you keeping this to yourself will hurt you too. She will understand you and you can get the comfort you need. Its okay to be afraid of judgement, everyone is. But i think that its really important that you think of yourself and your mental health at this time and get the help and comfort you deserve. Good luck with everything. You can do it no matter how long it takes. Dont rush yourself.
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Remember this, your parents will only be upset they couldnt help you. But they need to know. Sooner or later they will have to find out, and it will be tough for them to hear for sure, but NOWHERE near as tough as what you had to go through.
You need to have the people you care about the most know your pain and trauma for you to heal from it, also it must be very very disturbing for you to hear people praise this man when you know what he did to you. Your story is NOT a burden, it is something that happens to a lot more people than we think, and the only reason your parents will be upset will be that they did not find out sooner. I know you think they will be in a lot of pain, but believe me when I say that if this hasn't happened to them, they can't imagine your complex feelings on it, and can only take it at face value. Do what you need to do to heal!
It was never your fault ok....it that stupid prick looking ass fault for seeing a little kid and thinking it was ok to do such a thing...it made be hard but it's always best to reveal the evil things that have been done in secret....imagine that guy comes one day u would feel very disgusted and God forbid he try to do something similar it would be difficult for u to reach out to someone since u haven't told anyone about it...and we definitely dont want that thing to carry a good name in your family..ok. muschamp love girl
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Sincerely tell your family want happend. It' a grave crime, it's pedophilia. This guy can (and probably) do this to another child. Tell to your family is the best thing to protect his others victims. You don't have to be afraid, NOTHING is your fault. And if you're too afraid of your family, go to the police and tell them, they can help you.
I totally anderstand your situation, me too I was a victim of pedophilia. I transfer to you all my courage.
Ps: sorry my english is really bad, I'm not a native, I have a low vocabulary.
Im so sorry this happened to you OP. None of this is your fault and i hope one day you can confide in your mother and tell her the truth. Im sure it would upset her, but im also positive that you keeping this to yourself will hurt you too. She will understand you and you can get the comfort you need. Its okay to be afraid of judgement, everyone is. But i think that its really important that you think of yourself and your mental health at this time and get the help and comfort you deserve. Good luck with everything. You can do it no matter how long it takes. Dont rush yourself.