So I was molested by my cousin who was 16 year old and I was 7 year old . I didn't know what was happening was wrong or was abuse . I thought it was normal and yes I molested several times by three of my cousin age 18, 16, 14 respectively . I told everyone every adult in the family and they just laughed they thought I was joking and i was small like their was nothing wrong . Later my mother noticed something I am an adopted child she adopted me from her little sister . So I am talking about my adoptive mother , and she called me names in private , she called me slut when I was alone instead of confronting her nephews she blamed me , I didn't know what any of that meant like i was literally 9 year old at that time . I had no idea . So i tried searching for meaning on the internet etc and I found out what was happening and I came to know that I have been sexually abused by several people . It came down on me like a heaviest rain it was awful . I have trauma becoz of that and I keep having nightmares till this day even this morning I had a nightmare . I just wanted to let it out . I blamed myself for years and I am 21 rn . it's awful and it hurts to this day .
Thank you ! I am crying rn , I didn't talk to anyone about this except my ex but even he helped me a lot . Well the shit doesn't stop there I had to pretend to be happy all the time I hate going to their but My mother just took me there . She complaints that I don't talk to her nephews and I should smile at her nephews and be polite I FUCKing cannot do that . My dad once caught one of them molesting me and he was furious he didn't say anything becoz of my mother and funeral my aunt died that day she was the only who could understand me as a person . I do try to move on but everyone around me keep on pushing me . Aghhh FUCKing hate it . I just wish they just disappear and no one talks about them ever .
(I will swear a lot) Those assholes!!! How could they do that to a fucking child. Like are they out of their damn minds. For gods sake, how could you do that to a kid. What disgusting trash. They don’t even deserve to be called human. I’m extremely sorry that you had to go through something like that. I pray from the bottom of my heart that you will be able to move on from this and be happy. Always remember that it’s not your fault. I would recommend that you talk to someone in real life about this. When I was going through a tough time, talking to someone really helped. I wish you all the happiness of this world and I’m sorry that the adults failed to protect you. I hope my rambling made you feel a little better.
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Thank you ! I am crying rn , I didn't talk to anyone about this except my ex but even he helped me a lot .
Well the shit doesn't stop there I had to pretend to be happy all the time I hate going to their but My mother just took me there . She complaints that I don't talk to her nephews and I should smile at her nephews and be polite I FUCKing cannot do that . My dad once caught one of them molesting me and he was furious he didn't say anything becoz of my mother and funeral my aunt died that day she was the only who could understand me as a person . I do try to move on but everyone around me keep on pushing me .
Aghhh FUCKing hate it . I just wish they just disappear and no one talks about them ever .
(I will swear a lot) Those assholes!!! How could they do that to a fucking child. Like are they out of their damn minds. For gods sake, how could you do that to a kid. What disgusting trash. They don’t even deserve to be called human. I’m extremely sorry that you had to go through something like that. I pray from the bottom of my heart that you will be able to move on from this and be happy. Always remember that it’s not your fault. I would recommend that you talk to someone in real life about this. When I was going through a tough time, talking to someone really helped. I wish you all the happiness of this world and I’m sorry that the adults failed to protect you. I hope my rambling made you feel a little better.