I first realized that I liked women in first grade, so yeah, at about seven I guess. I was attracted to my first grade teacher— though I shoved those feelings down as much as I could for as long as I could. I knew it was something seen as abnormal. I was a girl and girls were supposed to like boys only. As I grew older and recognized what the gay community was, I was an active ally— all the while still deeply lying to myself. I called myself “straight but not narrow” or “bi-curious” if I was feeling especially brave. Throughout my teen years, I was having sex dreams about women, but it wasn’t something that I allowed myself to really think about when I was awake or getting off. I wouldn’t even watch or read porn with women. Unconsciously, I was protecting myself because I didn’t want to be abnormal more than I already was, but yeah, I’m in my twenties and I can finally admit that I’m bisexual.
