I am deathly afraid of birds. And by that, I mean, if I was given the option of either dying, or having to ever touch a bird, I would choose death. I hate everything about birds: how they sound, how they look, how they act. I don’t discriminate either. I hate all types of birds. Tiny little birds, penguins, big birds, I hate them all. Ever since I was little I just hated them and it got so much worse as I grew older. It’s really difficult even just walking down the streets because obv there are birds everywhere. I would visibly flinch everytime I see a bird make any sort of movement. When I’m outside, I almost always wear a hat or a hoodie over my head just so I can pretend birds don’t exist. Even if I didn’t have one on, I would use my hands or some other object im holding to limit my area of vision (only when i know for sure birds are there and when there aren’t much ppl around). I’m so scared of birds that I can’t even look at photos and even drawings of it. I genuinely get terrified when i see bird photos, it’s hard when im on instagram and I randomly scroll to a video or photo of a bird, i get so shocked and it just ruins the whole ig experience for me. One time, my friends pranked me and saved a photo of a peacock on my phone and when I saw it, i got so uncomfortable that I cried. It wasnt because i was mad at them, I was just reallyy uncomfortable that there was a photo of a bird in my phone. Also, i think that was before they knew how bad my fear actually is. Its also really hard telling people about this phobia, because often times people don’t even believe me. I’ve never met anyone with the same fear before so I guess it is a bit unusual but still :(( people would ask if I experienced something really bad with birds before and honestly, im not sure. I don’t think there was a big moment that really triggered this fear, and I can’t remember it all that well but I guess it was a collection of many experiences but I don’t remember which one started it. I remember as a young child, watching a horror film and in the movie, a phsycopathic child squeezes the life out of a tiny little duckling. It might’ve been then, im not too sure.
I just realized this was wayyyyy to long. Sorry for babbling guys
I kinda get the feeling. When I was younger I was deathly afraid of the color red. I could be having fun playing outside then a red car would drive by and I'd run inside and hide under my covers. And it wasn't just about hating the color like I just couldn't look at it. It genuinely sent shivers down my spine and made me feel so terrified. Sometimes I would try to hold my ground after seeing it, but the most unnerving feeling would just swell up and I would just hide. It was always awkward when I was with my siblings and I would randomly interrupt games or leave because I had seen the color and needed to hide. I'm not really sure when I stopped having this problem but I think it had something to do with being in school and not being able to go anywhere. Maybe after being forced to endure during school hours, I built up a resistance to the color. I never really figured out why that color gave me the creeps but now it's one of my favorite colors now. The fear just slowly subsided over the years and now I'm completely fine with it. But it is always kinda embarrassing to talk about this..
Thank you for sharing! Damn thats a lot of inconveniences you got to go through to avoid birds.. Have you tried therapy or like slowly adapting to them like watching videos or buying a bird stuffed animal to slowly desensitize yourself? Hope your fear gets better.
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I'm in a similar situation I have tokophobia. I want to get a partial hysterectomy just so I don't have to worry about it as much.
I kinda get the feeling. When I was younger I was deathly afraid of the color red. I could be having fun playing outside then a red car would drive by and I'd run inside and hide under my covers. And it wasn't just about hating the color like I just couldn't look at it. It genuinely sent shivers down my spine and made me feel so terrified. Sometimes I would try to hold my ground after seeing it, but the most unnerving feeling would just swell up and I would just hide. It was always awkward when I was with my siblings and I would randomly interrupt games or leave because I had seen the color and needed to hide. I'm not really sure when I stopped having this problem but I think it had something to do with being in school and not being able to go anywhere. Maybe after being forced to endure during school hours, I built up a resistance to the color. I never really figured out why that color gave me the creeps but now it's one of my favorite colors now. The fear just slowly subsided over the years and now I'm completely fine with it. But it is always kinda embarrassing to talk about this..
Thank you for sharing! Damn thats a lot of inconveniences you got to go through to avoid birds.. Have you tried therapy or like slowly adapting to them like watching videos or buying a bird stuffed animal to slowly desensitize yourself?
Hope your fear gets better.