Kinda glad I was bullied through elementary- middle school

Not saying that I wish this for anyone else, but younger me was rlly a piece of shit like real bad... I didn't understand those feelings until I was put in the being hurt shoes but now hurting people hurts me much more nd now I overthink most of the time- but before heated situations get too serious I have to confirm their intentions so I won't regret what happens next, even I'm scared of myself when it gets to that point but anyways no I'm not saying I see red so don't even