me yapping enjoy

alriiiigjt so i feel like writing it here
i didn’t even know you can do that here like sharing your experiences but its nice that you can do it!

mmm so i met this guy over a game i play daily
and we also already met up, he visited me and stayed over night both times (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
and before we got together i was in a pretty much toxic relationship with a guy who can’t fucking commit
he told me he’s emptily unavailable cos he has stuff to sort out and he can’t prioritize anyone but himself right now. but told me on the other hand that nothing is going to change (i suffered three months and cried everyday you can imagine how my face looked cos of all those salty tears.. honey my face was DEAD if i tell you IT WAS LIKE A DESERT)
anyways ermmm i got carried away hehe
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so anyways, my current boyfriend he’s nice, lovely, he reassures me that he loves me (every time i feel down or overthink)
HE CALLS ME like when we have an issue he actually calls me and we talk it out
and he actually gives me the feeling he’s as much obsessed with me as i am with him
cos ~i need my man obsessed with me~
i know those are basic but if we being honest
when does a man has those traits （￣へ￣）
he makes sure i feel loved and cared for
i mean he does live 6 hours away but i mean its going good
but.. here does it come
we only know each other since december
we both were so confused after the first meeting when he went home
we didn’t know what to feel or to do
felt so super surreal cos what do you mean you can fall in love after a week? wdym you want to have this person around you all the time?? i’m his first actual girlfriend, kinda makes me feel special if i’m being honest
we also talked about it our relationship cos we felt like we are rushing things
but then we both know what we want
we are adults, there’s no need for us to feel scared cos we both genuinely love each other
urgh but it’s defo scary
i really need to work on myself cos sometimes i have those traits from my past relationships those super duper toxic traits i got from my ex partners
and that sucks that’s for sure but i’m working on myself really hard everyday
even the jealousy isn’t that bad anymore
but overthinking you have it all the time cos it’s different when you’re able to see them all the time
but you can make it work if you want to
going into a distanced relationship means FULL STRAIGHT UP FULL COMMITMENT coz can just be half in it. no. fully. 100%
that’s how it works
<3 anyways i love him tons and i will marry him
actually we are already married in our lil minds we both are married
we talked about that too
he told me that he can’t believe how i just appeared in his life and now i am his life
it’s special to fall in love with someone before being able to touch them
<3