Am I an asshole

Awhile ago My best friend recently made a new friend and cancelled our planned sleepover to hang out sleepova with them instead… I was even more annoyed because she told me abt her plans to hang with her new friends and I specifically said “as long as it’s not on Friday” because WE had plans (she agreed at the time??!)

Anyway I chose to invite them both over because I still really really wanted to hang out with my bsf. Tbh I’m embarrassed looking back… the night before I had a panic attack that I couldn’t sleep and the day of I was kinda rude to the friend and best friend (mostly just being quiet, I didn’t say anything rude!!) tbh It was silly of me to host something that I didn’t really want to and the day after I was talking mad trash about the friend to my bsf and my best friend kept defending them although my bsf did say that she was acting kinda cuddly and possessive which is something ig.. tbh I was just really angry and upset Idkk it’s stupid looking back but at the time