Being a teenager

A few days ago, I had the pleasure to wake up and think differently. It felt like all of the sudden my mentality shifted and all that I believed before and all that I didn't belive in didn't make sense.
I realized over these past few days that most of my friends are pricks and jerks, and I can't say that I'm not one too.
The people who I once thought were cool now get on my nerves and also got me wondering why I was their friend in the first place,why I tried so hard to get along with people who had no interest in me ,why I bothered to ever try to get on their good side and ofcourse why I tried so hard for something
unachievable.
I always believed that I would never change, that I would stay the same until adulthood, but now that reality has hit me with the fact that I am one in 8 billion people and that the world isn't just familly and friends. I have begun wondering what the future holds in store for me.
I could even describe myself as 'lonely' deep on the inside, what I yearn for is company, understanding and support, yet I feel so distant from the 'friends' I enjoy being around, feeling often ignored.

Being a teenager in this society has been ruining my life.
Fears that I could overcome before have become even more apparent, the unsettling feeling I have always ignored can't be avoided anymore.
As people get more interested in each other I feel like a weed, ready to be pulled out, yet everybody walks over me.