This year has shown me so many things. I’ve finally come to realise so much about myself and about others. How shitty my parents and former friends are. How I shouldn’t feel guilty about them providing for me. I’ve spent so much of my own money, that I earned working part time & studying at the same time buying gifts and doing things for them only to be insulted in the end. So much of my time as a teen cooking and cleaning for them only for them to tell me I’m not doing enough. So much of my time stressing, trying to juggle school and the abuse at home, I lost so much of my years because I ended up failing my final year of high school and having to make up for that lose. I sometimes still feel like I’m behind. I spent so much of my time trying to show them how grateful I am, only to lose myself along the way. As for friends, I’d like to say that I have friends but as of this year I don’t. Doing so much for people I know deep down wouldn’t pick me in the end. And I’m not going to lose any more of myself trying to please the ones I had. So if you’re like me and trying to put yourself first, your physical and mental health first, then let’s work hard in 2026. For ourselves because we really don’t know what this coming year will bring. I’ve worked hard, I now have 2 degrees from a prestigious university and that’s because I put myself first for once. I didn’t just do what they told me. So let’s not lose ourselves trying to show people we care because frankly I don’t anymore. Let’s choose ourselves. Let’s have a happy new year
