Everyone has a purpose and I’m not saying this in that wishy washy way people say it to console the depressed; everyone has a reason to do something or a purpose.
Rn you’re feeling like you’re rudderless—probably broke or from a crap family life, no friends or insincere friendships, you feel like you’re way behind your peers or you see people doing more when they’re younger than you or your age and you think that it’s useless to try and change. Or that you don’t have the opportunities they had to get where they are or you don’t have the skills.
You’ll be okay and I don’t mean in a ‘everything will get better way’ because I don’t know you or your circumstances and I won’t make promises like that but I mean in a ‘change your outlook kinda way’? You know how I know? Sometimes I’ll look at old photos of back when I was in Highschool or 22 or something and I’d remember thinking that I wasn’t pretty or rich enough to have opportunities to do this or that. And that if someone were to sit me down right then/ now, and ask me ‘so what are your hobbies what do you enjoy?’ I’d only be able to reveal that I sleep or read gay shit you know?
In those moments I’d think I was at the bottom or that it couldn’t be worse or that it was hopeless and that everyone hates me and I’m too tired or just not witty enough to have conversations and that people get tired of humoring me but then I’d look back and think that those days were pretty okay and I really was very pretty in that picture and that it didn’t matter that I didn’t have cool hobbies because if I wanted to I could, and it didn’t matter that I’m not well off cause I can become that with hard work and one day I’ll be in an entirely different place and position I was from today; it’s all a matter of perspective. And so what I’m crap at conversations?
I don’t have any actual advice for getting out that spot, I didn’t want to say it’ll all be okay, just believe in yourself or keep on pushing because I hate those sort of advice it isn’t actionable.
Sometimes I just want reassurance and to know that I’m not alone in where I stand so I thought you’d want the same thing. Everything pertaining to you relies on you—things you can control rely on you. If you think all your problems stem from your looks? Start exercising and drink water do fasting. If it’s lack of money? Pride really stops people from working their asses off to make money because they want the fancy enviable jobs but work your way up till you’ve got the money to get what you want. If it’s family and your family is broken/ dad fucked off when you were little/ your siblings are closer to each other or don’t like you/ you feel guilty for all the hard work you mother does and feel like a burden/, then work on what you can fix and then later on have your own family meet someone you love or at least tolerate to live with. If it’s being educated, use YouTube you don’t need college for anything but the certificate; you can still learn.
Anything is surmountable once you aren’t fucking dead.
It's understandable to feel lost, especially when the world is as brutal as ours is. Get as much therapy and sleep and you can, I promise by 31 things will make more sense
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Everyone has a purpose and I’m not saying this in that wishy washy way people say it to console the depressed; everyone has a reason to do something or a purpose.
Rn you’re feeling like you’re rudderless—probably broke or from a crap family life, no friends or insincere friendships, you feel like you’re way behind your peers or you see people doing more when they’re younger than you or your age and you think that it’s useless to try and change. Or that you don’t have the opportunities they had to get where they are or you don’t have the skills.
You’ll be okay and I don’t mean in a ‘everything will get better way’ because I don’t know you or your circumstances and I won’t make promises like that but I mean in a ‘change your outlook kinda way’? You know how I know? Sometimes I’ll look at old photos of back when I was in Highschool or 22 or something and I’d remember thinking that I wasn’t pretty or rich enough to have opportunities to do this or that. And that if someone were to sit me down right then/ now, and ask me ‘so what are your hobbies what do you enjoy?’ I’d only be able to reveal that I sleep or read gay shit you know?
In those moments I’d think I was at the bottom or that it couldn’t be worse or that it was hopeless and that everyone hates me and I’m too tired or just not witty enough to have conversations and that people get tired of humoring me but then I’d look back and think that those days were pretty okay and I really was very pretty in that picture and that it didn’t matter that I didn’t have cool hobbies because if I wanted to I could, and it didn’t matter that I’m not well off cause I can become that with hard work and one day I’ll be in an entirely different place and position I was from today; it’s all a matter of perspective. And so what I’m crap at conversations?
I don’t have any actual advice for getting out that spot, I didn’t want to say it’ll all be okay, just believe in yourself or keep on pushing because I hate those sort of advice it isn’t actionable.
Sometimes I just want reassurance and to know that I’m not alone in where I stand so I thought you’d want the same thing. Everything pertaining to you relies on you—things you can control rely on you. If you think all your problems stem from your looks? Start exercising and drink water do fasting. If it’s lack of money? Pride really stops people from working their asses off to make money because they want the fancy enviable jobs but work your way up till you’ve got the money to get what you want. If it’s family and your family is broken/ dad fucked off when you were little/ your siblings are closer to each other or don’t like you/ you feel guilty for all the hard work you mother does and feel like a burden/, then work on what you can fix and then later on have your own family meet someone you love or at least tolerate to live with. If it’s being educated, use YouTube you don’t need college for anything but the certificate; you can still learn.
Anything is surmountable once you aren’t fucking dead.
girl I’m the same age.. and I still live with my mom zero goals. zero motivation. hate the job that I do have too.
It's understandable to feel lost, especially when the world is as brutal as ours is. Get as much therapy and sleep and you can, I promise by 31 things will make more sense
Hey dude dont worry about it, life isnt meant to have purpose. Just have fun and do what you like