Might crash out icl

Been mourning a friendship I knew was going to end, just didnt think they'd start acting mean to me, then when I asked if I'd done anything bc they acted annoyed whenever I tried to speak to them and act like they wanted any convos we had to finish fast, said they just "didnt like how I act" aka my personality. Which is fucking fine, it just doesnt explain why they are acting like a bitch to me. Ive literally been so fucking nice this whole time even when they've repeatedly hurt my feelings. I just want to sink into the ground and not see anyone for a long time. Can't even avoid them rn cause we go to the same school and courses! i dont even know how im going to act around them anymore. I hope they just ignore me. I actually dont think I could take it if they keep playing this hot cold game with me.

I thought I could take whatever problem they had with me when I asked, but knowing they just dont like me for being myself hurts so fucking bad. They said I started acting differently recently, the only thing ive changed is ive started talking about my interests and not agreeing with everything people say if I dont agree. 7 years of memories tainted ig.