idk how to write this as a question

i hate bananas. idk why. i think it may have something to do with the time when i was force fed a banana in school but i realised how much i really hate bananas today. when i smelt the scent of bananas, i lost my appetite instantly. what's even worse is that someone made a mess where little pieces of chewed banana were on the table counter. i was disgusted and my mood went down to 0%. when i thought about accidentally touching those little banana pieces i immediately gagged. i hate whoever left their banana in the open. i wish i could put that half-eaten banana in the bin but i don't care even wanna touch it. anyways, you can clearly see the problem. how do i stop being obsessive over this and get used to the smell of bananas?