So a manwha got to me so badly that I am currently crashing out lol. But I think I'm going through a manic state and I'm terrified. I might have a undiagnosed bpd and adhd, so fun. Im on a wait list to see a psychiatrist, but like it's been almost 2 months and I'm scared. For context my father is bipolar and my mom has adhd and anxiety( unmedicated bcs she don't trust medication and thinks mental illnesses don't exist, but slowly is accepting the fact). I have mild anxiety and severe depression, but since medication didn't quite work doctors suspected something else and my blood test results were clear ( just anemic). Im tired of living like this and our world getting shittier by the second is not making it easier tor me. Im tired of living in general. I wish I could know what is so wrong with me. Just venting in my reading galore site. Here since I was 12 haha. Now 20, almost 21 with no future and a disability I cant name
