It's so fucking stupid that I can't handle something as stupid as this shit to the point I wanna fucking die, I mean I've been considering it since I was 10 so its not really that new but it's just stupid because people have more serious problems and suffer more than me yet here I am crying and whining about how I wanna die just cuz of this it's so funny.
It's so confusing on when your parents call you all sorts of degrading words just because you didn't wash the dishes? Hwta do you mean I'm a demon and that you wouldve killed me if you can just cuz I didn't manage to read your mind on what you wanted me to do What do you mean Im a lazy piece of shit and if you can you would've bashed my head into pieces just because I didnt just walk to get water and instead remained sitting and pushing the chair to walk? I don't even understand how that is lazy when the shit is right next to me and I just had to push the chair slightly just to get it??
I don't understand how they blame kids on not knowing what to do either, you never taught me anything yet you expect me to just know shit and do things? It's so confusing on how they percieved themselves as saints for taking care of me but that's their obligation to do as my relatives and parents???
You raise a child to be dependent to you and yet you expect them to be able to create a thought of their own? I am not doing anything not because I'm lazy but because I haven't received your order to do it? Is ordering me that hard? Why are you complaining and saying shit like "I'm so tired and here you are being a lazy fucker and not even getting up to get a goddamn water" like? Your the one who can't fucking wiat for me to do shit and then your complaining your tired? How about you stop being an impatient bitch and actually wiat for once.
Idk if anyone else's relatives and parents do this but is it normal for them to make death threats to you? And call you demon or Satan's child? Just for minding yourself and not even bothering them? Like you were just on you phone in your room and then all of a sudden you hear them calling for you and telling you that they should've stabbed you with a knife, bash your head, killed you, and shits and then calling you a devil and all? Is that normal? Is it normal to just want to get beaten up instead of hearing those words said again? It feels awful because there are people getting abused and here I am crying over some words and even preferring to just get beaten up.
It's so funny cuz after all this they'll hey back to their nice side and we'll all forget this and just go back to being happy and shits and I'll forget my suicidal thoughts until I come to remember again and I get the urge to do it it's just a never ending cycle atp.
hi sweetheart it’s not your fault at all pls do not invalidate your feelings by comparing yourself to others :(( i know this feeling all too well and i want you to know you’re not alone!! i saw your replies, youre incredibly smart, hard working, and driven, you’re someone with such a bright future ahead of you i don’t understand how parents could have it in their hearts to say such things to their children but you are NOT lazy nor do their harsh words apply to you in the end it all stems from their insecurities i hope you know you’re loved kiel keep going and stay strong <3 ps if this helps: my dad has been like this for years as well and he’s sent me to get “help” so many times when in reality we need therapy because those around us won’t.. BUT i’ve worked really hard to get into a good college and i can finally move away in a few months ^-^ dorming with my friends it’s my motivation to keep going and i know it sounds hypocritical for me to say but i promise you there’s so much more to life than contemplating death. you’re awesome I LOVE U
pls dont try anything dangerous. i know that parents r b*tches, like how can they treat their own kids that they CHOSE to have like this? trust me, ive been in a psych ward multiple times cause of previous attempts due to serious family issues, and i struggle with depression and anxiety. its gonna sound hypocritical but pls dont attempt, i want u to resist it because i dont want anyone to ever go thru what ive been thru. im so sorry that ur going thru some bs like this and im so sorry that ur parents dont know how to treat u w the love and care u clearly deserve. but pls dont give up.
for me, the only thing thats keeping me going is the fact that i'll be free and far away from my family once i go to college, and my life WILL get better once i distance myself from them. pls dont take out ur anger on urself please. pls dont give up and keep going!! ur determination and will itself is a sign of rebellion that proves how strong and amazing u are. i hope u know that i love u sososo much and am always here for u!!!!!!!! so pls reach out to me or talk to anyone that u can trust, idk how you'd contact me but we can find a way <333
for me, the only thing thats keeping me going is the fact that i'll be free and far away from my family once i go to college, and my life WILL get better once i distance myself from them. pls dont take out ur a... hanniehae
I hope you know Im actually sobbing and ugly crying to this I'm sorry it's strange for me to cry over some strangers comment that doesn't even know me I know that ur just saying that u love me to reassure me but it's just oh my god
I hope you know Im actually sobbing and ugly crying to this I'm sorry it's strange for me to cry over some strangers comment that doesn't even know me I know that ur just saying that u love me to reassure me bu... Kiel
ofc bb everyone deserves to feel loved and everyone wants to help u <33
my replies get restricted for some reason? so idrk if u will be able to read this but i hope u are
firstly, please don't compare struggles, everyone has it differently. everyone has their own battles, someone may have it worse, but that doesn't mean you are also not going thru shit... i can see how it would make you feel better, cause i also used to think this way, but please don't downplay what you are going thru
How old are you? Only thing I can tell you is dying isn't a solution. Do you think these people would change themselves because their kid died because of their abuse? Answer is no. They won't, they will have another kid or if you have a sibling then do exactly what they are doing to you to them.
So what I am going to tell you is a perfect revenge plan. 1. Study hard, harder than you can imagine, build your portfolio such that no college could ever reject you, and you get scholarships.
2. Once you enter college you start preparing for jobs, get certifications, internships and part time jobs to build your resume such that no one could reject you.
3 And then you wait these same people would come grovelling before you for money. And what do you do then you remind them of everything they have done to you and then you say "NO , No chance" and you reject them. Oh boy they will explode like any other, what I can say is it will be fun to watch.
Meanwhile you also build good relationships and find yourself a chosen family.
Your success is permanent pain for your abusers while your death is temporary guilt, they will get over it in just a month. Endure it, work hard and you will see a better life for yourself
I have good grades I'm in the honor list I get medals and certificates all the time. I know dying isn't a solution but this mindset has been engraved to me ever since I was a kid and I couldnt do anything to change it, it wasn't even a proper reason I wanna die just because I want them to see them cry and grovel at my grave I wanna prove to them that they're the reason that I'm like this and it's not my fault I'm a fucking piece of shit. Dying is not a solution but for me it's salvation.
Thank you for your kind words, I don't know if I will be able to follow I don't even see myself living because I know that one day I'll give in to my thoughts and actually do it but still ill try to better myself and follow what you said, although even if I don't do it rn I fear I will because I beloved that dying by my own hands is better than dying by some accident I might not be suicidal in the near future but when I finally achieved what I want in life I would probably just kill mysf and die peacefully. Anw thank you really I will really try my best to do what you've told me and just bury myself in studying and get even better grades:)))
I have good grades I'm in the honor list I get medals and certificates all the time. I know dying isn't a solution but this mindset has been engraved to me ever since I was a kid and I couldnt do anything to ch... Kiel
Hey kid its alright only thing I can say is you are expecting validation from people who don't give a shit about you. You are working hard for yourself not for them. Give yourself a chance for having a good life without them in picture. People who are cruel to you should not matter to you at all. Study hard, get a college and leave asap. You will see there are many people who will cherish you and that can only happen when you will leave and see the world.
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hi sweetheart it’s not your fault at all pls do not invalidate your feelings by comparing yourself to others :(( i know this feeling all too well and i want you to know you’re not alone!! i saw your replies, youre incredibly smart, hard working, and driven, you’re someone with such a bright future ahead of you
i don’t understand how parents could have it in their hearts to say such things to their children but you are NOT lazy nor do their harsh words apply to you in the end it all stems from their insecurities
i hope you know you’re loved kiel keep going and stay strong <3
ps if this helps:
my dad has been like this for years as well and he’s sent me to get “help” so many times when in reality we need therapy because those around us won’t..
BUT i’ve worked really hard to get into a good college and i can finally move away in a few months ^-^ dorming with my friends it’s my motivation to keep going and i know it sounds hypocritical for me to say but i promise you there’s so much more to life than contemplating death.
you’re awesome I LOVE U
pls dont try anything dangerous. i know that parents r b*tches, like how can they treat their own kids that they CHOSE to have like this? trust me, ive been in a psych ward multiple times cause of previous attempts due to serious family issues, and i struggle with depression and anxiety. its gonna sound hypocritical but pls dont attempt, i want u to resist it because i dont want anyone to ever go thru what ive been thru. im so sorry that ur going thru some bs like this and im so sorry that ur parents dont know how to treat u w the love and care u clearly deserve. but pls dont give up.
for me, the only thing thats keeping me going is the fact that i'll be free and far away from my family once i go to college, and my life WILL get better once i distance myself from them. pls dont take out ur anger on urself please. pls dont give up and keep going!! ur determination and will itself is a sign of rebellion that proves how strong and amazing u are. i hope u know that i love u sososo much and am always here for u!!!!!!!! so pls reach out to me or talk to anyone that u can trust, idk how you'd contact me but we can find a way <333
I hope you know Im actually sobbing and ugly crying to this I'm sorry it's strange for me to cry over some strangers comment that doesn't even know me I know that ur just saying that u love me to reassure me but it's just oh my god
ofc bb everyone deserves to feel loved and everyone wants to help u <33
my replies get restricted for some reason? so idrk if u will be able to read this but i hope u are
firstly, please don't compare struggles, everyone has it differently. everyone has their own battles, someone may have it worse, but that doesn't mean you are also not going thru shit... i can see how it would make you feel better, cause i also used to think this way, but please don't downplay what you are going thru
How old are you? Only thing I can tell you is dying isn't a solution. Do you think these people would change themselves because their kid died because of their abuse? Answer is no. They won't, they will have another kid or if you have a sibling then do exactly what they are doing to you to them.
So what I am going to tell you is a perfect revenge plan.
1. Study hard, harder than you can imagine, build your portfolio such that no college could ever reject you, and you get scholarships.
2. Once you enter college you start preparing for jobs, get certifications, internships and part time jobs to build your resume such that no one could reject you.
3 And then you wait these same people would come grovelling before you for money. And what do you do then you remind them of everything they have done to you and then you say "NO , No chance" and you reject them. Oh boy they will explode like any other, what I can say is it will be fun to watch.
Meanwhile you also build good relationships and find yourself a chosen family.
Your success is permanent pain for your abusers while your death is temporary guilt, they will get over it in just a month. Endure it, work hard and you will see a better life for yourself
I have good grades I'm in the honor list I get medals and certificates all the time. I know dying isn't a solution but this mindset has been engraved to me ever since I was a kid and I couldnt do anything to change it, it wasn't even a proper reason I wanna die just because I want them to see them cry and grovel at my grave I wanna prove to them that they're the reason that I'm like this and it's not my fault I'm a fucking piece of shit. Dying is not a solution but for me it's salvation.
Thank you for your kind words, I don't know if I will be able to follow I don't even see myself living because I know that one day I'll give in to my thoughts and actually do it but still ill try to better myself and follow what you said, although even if I don't do it rn I fear I will because I beloved that dying by my own hands is better than dying by some accident I might not be suicidal in the near future but when I finally achieved what I want in life I would probably just kill mysf and die peacefully. Anw thank you really I will really try my best to do what you've told me and just bury myself in studying and get even better grades:)))
Hey kid its alright only thing I can say is you are expecting validation from people who don't give a shit about you. You are working hard for yourself not for them. Give yourself a chance for having a good life without them in picture. People who are cruel to you should not matter to you at all. Study hard, get a college and leave asap. You will see there are many people who will cherish you and that can only happen when you will leave and see the world.