Okay, so I’ve liked being called she or her for years now because it feels good to me. But I’m not gay or anything, I just like getting called like that and I like woman too. Sometimes I can’t stand people calling me boy manhe him or anything related to being a man because I just don’t want it. At the same time, there are also moments when I do like being called a man or using “he/him.”
I don’t really want to label myself as something like transgender or nonbinary because I don’t know if I want to admit that I like being seen as a woman. Whenever I want to make a new friend, I always end up reminding them that I’m a woman, and I don’t want to admit that I’m actually a guy because I don’t want that either, I don't want that I'm calling myself a man to people. But at the same time, I also don’t want to lie to them.
I don’t really know how to explain it. I just don’t want to put a name or label on it. Some people know exactly whether they want to be a man or a woman, or something else entirely, but I don’t really know what I want. This might sound stupid, but I just wanted to say it because it’s been bothering meeee sorry
It just feels wrong to say, “I’m a cis man,” because while I do like being a man sometimes, I also want to be a woman.
Oh also idk if having devoted Catholic father affect something lol, anyway sorry for long rant Ó╭╮Ò also u can call me he/him here because I want it nothing more
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I had a similar experience with my own gender. Not exactly the same, but I also didn't really know how to label myself. Now I just don't label my gender lol. I generally identify as trans and use any pronouns, but I don't have a specific gender identity that I relate to. Idk if that outcome would be right for you, and I'd suggest looking into a lot of the different identities that exist. You might feel more comfortable with bigender or gender fluid, but you also don't need to label your identity at all if you don't want to. Give yourself time to think about it and experiment. It can take a while but eventually you'll figure out what works best for you.
Thank you so much
This seems so conflicting, I rlly hope u someday find peace within ur identity :C (Can't relate with what ur specifically going through, but I do relate with having identity crises.)
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