honestly i’m getting severe paranoia because my mom keeps spying on me. my bedroom is in the middle of my house, next to the living room and the kitchen. she quite literally eavesdrops on me all the time. the walls are so thin i’m scared to even WHISPER. she hears everything and i feel suffocated af.
i just coughed and she yelled at me immediately, im deadass going to kill myself, im not even kidding. i’m so sick of this, mind you, even when she’s not home i have to make sure every 2 minutes that she’s not home because i have paranoia. i come out of my bedroom at least 60 times a day to look around the whole house. i’m even scared to go out of my room with my panties only because i fear she has installed cameras in the living room to spy on me.
it might sound ridiculous but i’m legit SO SCARED. i used to get punished if i stopped sharing my location with her, IM TURNING 20 SOON BRUH STOP OMFG.
i feel very anxious idk what to do she is insane, i cant even eat in peace she stays around me all the time i feel nauseous af.
last time i went to the ER because i was too high and she took my ipad that i left on my bed and she read my texts with my ex best friend. i cant even feel comfortable in my own home what the actual fuck. she is so weird. everytime i wanna go somewhere she asks me if im high on drugs or where im going, with who, what im doing etc. i know its considered normal but my mom is NOT NORMAL. im even scared to go outside because if she could, she would follow me around all day.
fuck my life istg. i don’t know what to do. she keeps making me develop mental illnesses im genuinely going crazy, im just asking for her to respect my boundaries and privacy but she never did and will never respect me
i forgot to say that we have a balcony, meaning she can also spy on me by looking through my window, sooo nice
. my brother used to spy on me like this too, i felt like i was gonna lose it. i had to buy really thick blackout curtains to feel a bit more comfortable in my own room. i can never air out my room because my mom would definitely spy on me. so im in the dark all day and my room stinks af
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girl I hope u move out
me too. i shouldn’t have came back, i wanted to save up as much as i could, but gosh id rather be poor at that point lmao
Omg, essaye de partir au plus vite genre vas chez une de tes pote, dans un internat ou un truc comme ça, éloigne toi de ta mère autant que tu peux sinon tu vas resté parano, jusqu'au bout de ta vie. J'espère vraiment que sa va s'arranger pour toi :'(
no but i swear c’est une folie. je suis étudiante dcp j’ai dmd le crous mais ces vieux fdp ils m’ont refuser. déjà ils mont enlevé 2 échelons frr je suis maudite.
je vais essayé de trouvé un job asap comme ça peut etre je peux faire une demande de logement via jinka ou leboncoin jsp mm si je vis plus chez elle je sais qu’elle va m’attraper un jour ou l’autre dans mon propre appartement pr me faire la misère. jpp d’elle la vie j’ai envie de me casser dans une autre ville mais j’ai mm pas le permis
Si tu cherches un job loin de chez toi tu peux faire un job d'été sur les côtes, une de mes pote la fait et elle était logé + salaire, aussi pour l'appartement tu peu cherché des offres de collocation même si c'est pas toujours safe, je prie pour que ta situation s'améliore dans tout les cas
merci bcp pour ce conseil, je vais me renseigner!!! j’ai demandé des colocs sur le crous j’aurais une réponse mardi prochain
oh girl move out asap, I dont know what ur situation though thats so scary, I think i would genuinely lose my sanity. I dont even think i can give adequate advice because it sounds straight out of a nightmare. I hope you can find a way to safely exist your situation soon..
i want to move out asap but oh god even when i was living alone she would freak out if i wasn’t answering to her on the phone.
one day she SPAMMED ME 100 times, called, texted and drove all the way to my place because i wasn’t replying. GIRL I WAS SLEEPING
i am indeed losing my sanity, im fed UP.
Girl get the Hell out of that house as soon as you can, this sounds horrifying omg.
i can’t i don’t have a job plus you gotta have like a guarantor to get a house, and i have no other family member, no one can help me bro .
there’s this system called « le CROUS» that helps students with housing, scholarship and such, i’ve applied to get a house, THEY REFUSED ME . this was my last solution because if i can’t get an apartment on my own, i can rely on them, but they don’t even want me bro
i’ve applied again, i don’t even care if i end up living with 4 roommates or in a small ass room, but if they refuse me again, im fucked
i have to play either bob marley ( shes racist ) or tech music as loud as i can, just so she leaves me alone. this is #hell