I don't know how to still break it to them he's gone, I have been avoiding talking to them cause they seem to really want to meet him. It's been like years since they last talked apparently, they're asking about other friends and it's so AWKWARD for me to talk about. I don't wanna talk about it, as respect about those people. I don't know how to tell them as well that this other person they trust so much had done SUCH SUCH horrible things which I won't go deeper into. Obviously I'm going to tell them, but I feel sad that they have to learn this way. They seemed excited to reconnect. It's hard to like do all of this over again. To have to update and tell someone that someone's passed away. Also man, I'm still haunted when I've tried to move on.
