No official "ending", not even a proper closure. I think that's what makes it hurt even more. We got the chance to talk things out, but somehow it still ended in an argument, with gifts being thrown away. I couldn't bring myself to accept the gift we had for each other because it felt like a parting gift which I loathe the idea of since it implies we will never see each other again. This is not our first time going through things tho, we've had rough patches before which we managed to fix by talking things out but this time I really don't know....This might be the end. I'm blocked on everything with no way to contact, and we are in the same university but I don't see her around anymore. Transferred, probably.
I'm still trying to figure out my feelings and what to do, I don't even want to talk about everything in detail yet because it somehow feels like a betrayal of our friendship. For now, all I can do is try to understand what happened, what could've been, and where we both went wrong. She still means so much to me even though we've hurt each other deeply. Please help me cope. People always say that time heals all wounds, but I'm not sure I believe that.
Have you guys experienced this too? How do you even cope with this hahaha....
Yes, time will heal wounds. I've experienced the same thing as you and for me they don't even accept my apology when I tried to multiple times to revive our friendship. It's, it will take a real long time. Could take you weeks, months and even years. But eventually, it'll stop hurting. Things may have ended roughly or no closure, but what you felt in your friendship is still real. Everything still mattered in those short times, but people change. Their opinions changes. Their behaviour do and unfortunately we can't do anything about it. You don't have to force yourself to move on now, let yourself grieve as much as you want.
Mine is probably different, but I experienced something similar as well (twice at that) I got blocked as well. I initially keep blaming myself and I had nightmares as well. I keep trying to understand what happened and how did we ended up like this, but at one point, I was like ‘whatever’ and let it be. I still remember it once in a while, but it’s more like a passing thought or some kind of bad memory now.
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Yes, time will heal wounds. I've experienced the same thing as you and for me they don't even accept my apology when I tried to multiple times to revive our friendship. It's, it will take a real long time. Could take you weeks, months and even years. But eventually, it'll stop hurting. Things may have ended roughly or no closure, but what you felt in your friendship is still real. Everything still mattered in those short times, but people change. Their opinions changes. Their behaviour do and unfortunately we can't do anything about it. You don't have to force yourself to move on now, let yourself grieve as much as you want.
Mine is probably different, but I experienced something similar as well (twice at that)
I got blocked as well. I initially keep blaming myself and I had nightmares as well. I keep trying to understand what happened and how did we ended up like this, but at one point, I was like ‘whatever’ and let it be. I still remember it once in a while, but it’s more like a passing thought or some kind of bad memory now.