if I find something good, and binge read it, then I feel like a miserable bum but atleast not bored. If I don't find anything, it's worse, because now I'm also bored. I suppose I should go outside huh. I also needa complete my notebook but it's so boring and i have too much backlog. Fuck my class teacher she's a bitch. Plus I've been missing school and tomorrow is Monday. I'll get chewed out for sure. Plus it's so hot. It's horrible going out everyday to interact with nobody and just write and write and write. I wanna go to college alreadyyyyyyy. I'll make friends, go to the movies with them and they hopefully would be mature enough to not do the hierarchy thing in friend groups. Yk where one person is practically worshipped by the others and there's toxicity. I'm soooo sick of it. My friends suck. My best friend is buddies with another person. So now I'm really lonely. I had issues speaking so I naturally didn't have a close friend, just classmates, so now that I'm doing better it's too late because everyone already has close friends yk. They weren't lying when they said it really sucks in your last year of high school. All your friends go away. Writing here makes me feels better. ALSOOO LOOK AT MY BIRDS. My source of happiness.
you have cute birds !!! also, if you can, try joining communities near you. many ppl in my town join eachother to do pottery, discuss about books, or even eat together. it is a good way to meet new people, and even if you feel a bit shy or awkward socially, they definitely will make you feel at ease
try talking to ur bsf, high school friends don’t always have to get cut off right after school ends. i’ve been friends with my bsf since middle school and we still talk to each other every single day about anything. even so, don’t worry too much, you’ll find new people/friends in college, i hope you’ll have loads of fun
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you have cute birds !!!
also, if you can, try joining communities near you. many ppl in my town join eachother to do pottery, discuss about books, or even eat together. it is a good way to meet new people, and even if you feel a bit shy or awkward socially, they definitely will make you feel at ease
try talking to ur bsf, high school friends don’t always have to get cut off right after school ends. i’ve been friends with my bsf since middle school and we still talk to each other every single day about anything. even so, don’t worry too much, you’ll find new people/friends in college, i hope you’ll have loads of fun