Does anyone just feel alone all the time?

I have friends and people around me, i’m not lonely like that, but sometimes I feel disconnected a bit and I struggle to feel at ease around even my closest friends sometimes, like I have to perform to make sure they like me and I can get really really anxious about what people think of me and i feel like everyone finds me boring, weird and just puts up with me.

I didn’t realise how bad this feeling was until I genuinely sabotaged my relationship with a really nice guy because I still cannot believe that there is anything of me that someone can actually like.

I think because of that my anxiety and aloneness has gotten worse, and I don’t know what to do to stop feeling this way, but it would help a great deal if others felt this way and that’s it’s not just something wrong with me, I know this this a weird place to dump my feelings like this but I really just need some people to see me and maybe feel a little less alone