I’m crying how do straight women do this constantly

When you js do some stupid ass shit AGAIN I thought I learned my lessons last year
Guess not …? LOL
My extreme fear of pregnancy didn’t stop me from ffm again because idek why I promised myself I will never do 3somes again especially if a man is involved AND IT HAPPENED FOR WHAT IT WAS TERRIBLE I wholeheartedly think I need my free will taken away from me I don’t even like men why did I do this to myself
Ik I’m like realistically 80% not pregnant but.. yk
What if the universe told me fuck you one more time this year that would be very fitting

I keep overanalysing every little thing and every symptom
Can any of yall relate, I could technically test now but I should probably wait another week for a more accurate result TS shit is making me actually go insane how do women with boyfriend deal with this constantly