realising how selfish my mom really is

honestly i had clicked onto this a few years back, and me and my siblings always talk about it but my mom is a very selfish individual if i think about it.

sure she has a pros but after everything shes enables my dads abuse.

shes enabled this abuse since what, i was about 9? its strange because now i think about it, if she really cared she wouldve got rid of him every time he hit us or her but recently she said she felt lonely without him. i know her feelings are valid but bare in mind this was straight after we kicked him out because he beat me up (lmao he like dragged me by my hair and punched and kicked me in my face but oh well!!) then he tried it with my brother but that ended up with blood being everywhere yikes

i just felt it was very insensitive of her in that moment, and the worst thing is she let him back in and pretended like nothing happened? saying at the end of the day thats our dad and her little kids cant grow up without a dad.

it just hurts to think that in reality shes keeping him for herself, she doesn't really care about her kids i mean i have loads of examples.

idk anymore, am i being insensitive about this situation and my moms feelings??