Help

In need of vibrator-dildo recommendations for me and my wife. For context, Me F 22 and my wife F 43 have recently gotten married, we originally met through my parents she’s an old friend of the family who knew me since I was a child, when I started high school we started meeting up a lot in secret until we eventually fell in love and finally made it official after I turned 20, my parent’s weren’t very accepting, that’s why I threatened to leave them if they don’t and that worked out! which leads to where we are now! I’m in need of specific brand vibrators-dildos that will make our time together special. I’m always on the receiving end- a pillow princess not because I want to but whenever I try to reciprocate she pushes me off and says she’s satisfied just watching me. which I know isn’t the case. Because I caught her masturbating last week watching lesbian porn “Young cute 18 year old student girls Lady Bug and Anie Darling in class after school doing some homework and decide to kiss”, I asked her about it and she refused to answer and I was left there sad and confused. I want to be good enough for her, however since she refuses my physical touch I’m sure an equipment would work! As well as I want to try doing cosplay for her in my old school uniform. Would like any help or suggestions!