are there any marauders fans here?

last year I read tcoptp, I got ABSOLUTELY OBSESSED over it. I was always scared of reading atyd because of the angst, but last week I started reading it. I'm sorry but can you guys actually read it??? I'm currently on chap 104 and I'm devastated. since I feel everything so intensely and get hyperfocused easily, I been so anxious about it that I literally can't do anything. my hyperfixation on personality and enneagram is gone and now I can't read atyd because james and lily are going to die, sirius is going to azkaban and remus is gonna be all alone. they're still in year 6, but just thinking about it makes me so upset bro. I LOVE REMUS JOHN LUPIN HE IS ME AND I AM HIM I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE