Tb to when my ex video called me while he was killing himself

Yeah he video called me and showed me of him going somewhere to jump off and I had to watch that and try my hardest to get to him because his online friends disagreed with him or fought with him or something idk I forgot whatever it was and I was just so traumatized ever since then that I can't even use video calls and had to agree with him almost and be "neutral" Did it like 4 times too