WHy tHe fucK.

I have a tendency that everytime I get very anxious or on the verge of crying, I write very LONG ASS appreciation messages to random AF people I really love on the internet. And before anyone calls it sweet, I'm telling you that sometimes they ARE borderline creepy. I am KNOWN in my friend circle for being overly sincere and being a yap machine in texting if given even a slightest bit of chance. And ykw, I JUST wrote a VERY VERY LONG msg to an artist I really like on tiktok and now that I feel sobber and out of tears, I am YET AGAIN realising just how creepy that was. And she's literally my favourite artist nowadays. And I can't even delete it. Fml. This has happened too many times for me to count. And I am also awkward as all hell most times so uuuggghhh. Someone dig my grave now I'm even more anxious. WHAT IF SHE SEES AND REPLIES. OH NO. And now I'm yapping here. Yeh no I'm gonna make myself some noodles smh.