im so lonely

I don't think I can be saved at this point. I'm just drowning myself in this pity party even though so many people care about me.

I feel so miserable. I don't even know why I'm posting this in a yaoi infested porn site. But I guess this is better than just talking to AI. I just wanna get better, but I'm too tired to do anything.

I really wanna kill myself. But I'll get better soon— these kinds of episodes only lasts for weeks sometimes. I'll get better, maybe.

I hope I don't succeed in killing myself, I'll get sad if my dog loses me.