Rn I'm currently at archi school... And I gotta say it's actually causing me alot of mental issues.I already felt burnt out when I graduated from high school, and rn I'm also a student assistant-Basically it's like a scholarship program...and it's basically paying my tuition. I can shift in my next sem... But lately I've been thinking I don't really want to go to college.... And it's not bec of the major... It's just i don't seem very interested in academics as of rn... Probably bec I'm drained and burnt out... It's weird to see peers working so hard for something I'm not interested in..' its weird to feel and to know that I can do better in my current situation... But at the Same Time I can't..... I used to be an honors student... And now I'm missing classes.... And I'm barely passing.... Ik if I worked hard... It would work out... But lately I feel like instead of pushing trough and forcing myself... I've been thinking of actually making some changes in my life. But at the same time I can't.... My parents won't let me drop out.... Or they'll most likely kick me out (and BTW this isn't my assumptions they literally told me that).... Family, academics... Work everything has been draining me... Rn I wanna pursue a job.. And move out... But at the same time I'm scared.... Bec I just can't move out....... Idk anymore.... I dont really wanna share this but my home isn't really the best place to grow up either.... I just feel so tired... And exhausted. Especially with my parents..... They've always been emotionally neglectful...... They never listened and comprehend... Nor they try to understand me.... They always assume the worse from me... They always make me feel like I'm such a Shitty person either... And there were times... That they really stepped out of line.... Making me think they're abusers....I just don't know anymore.....
I think you need to continue studying and save up the scholarships and by then you can leave with money to look a place. It's just hard to leave if you are not prepared.
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I think you need to continue studying and save up the scholarships and by then you can leave with money to look a place. It's just hard to leave if you are not prepared.