I hate dad

Ever since he suffered from stroke he doesn't work, doesn't help with any of the household things, doesn't buy groceries, spends money on useless things and when mom is sick he calls his relatives to come over and have lunch or dinner, making mom cook while she is sick, and just mindlessly scrolls on his phone all day. Half of our savings are spent on his treatment. I need to get few treatments but I still can't because of him. He never brings stuffs I need, even asking for a small thing from him is such a burden. He hasn't even bought momma or me a new dress in years. Mom is so sick of this, but she never raises her voice at him. sometimes she tells me she's gonna kill herself and I get so scared. She says I'm the only reason she's alive. She works all day even though she is suffering with endometriosis. She buys me what I need. Pays for my college and everything. I just wish I could live somewhere far away with momma and give her all the best things she couldn't get. I hate this life.