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Lowkey I feel like being on this site is more enjoyable than like anything else lol. But yeah I should live a fulfilling life and people are gonna ask me what are my interests
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I mean just all the responsibilities and just dealing with expectations or judgment from others.
I just feel like part of me doesn’t care bout my future. I just wanna be a shut-in that’s on my phone all the time. It’s just tbh aside from hentai there’s nothing I look forward to and even if I did quit it, I’d have no other effective way to mange my emotions. I just feel sad, angry, powerless, and worthless often. I don’t like when others judge me but at the same time I don’t think I could ever become someone they won’t judge.
I just can’t build interest and have hobbies. I’m either emotionally overwhelmed or just find the activity pointless like I’d rather be on my phone scrolling or on here. I also just have no ambition. I just wanna be closed off from the world and rest mostly. I don’t want friends either. It just feels like a chore to talk to people. I have to think of what to say, what to ask, how to respond, etc. But then I’m labeled as weird bc I’m quiet. But even if I did try, people anyways don’t like me. I’m not fun to be around and I have no intention of changing that bc I just can’t. I get drained easily and if I pretend to be someone I’m not, I’ll get exhausted in a short while.
I just feel like part of me doesn’t care bout my future. I just wanna be a shut-in that’s on my phone all the time. It’s just tbh aside from hentai there’s nothing I look forward to and even if I did quit it, I’d have no other effective way to mange my emotions. I just feel sad, angry, powerless, and worthless often. I don’t like when others judge me but at the same time I don’t think I could ever become someone they won’t judge.
I just can’t build interest and have hobbies. I’m either emotionally overwhelmed or just find the activity pointless like I’d rather be on my phone scrolling or on here. I also just have no ambition. I just wanna be closed off from the world and rest mostly. I don’t want friends either. It just feels like a chore to talk to people. I have to think of what to say, what to ask, how to respond, etc. But then I’m labeled as weird bc I’m quiet. But even if I did try, people anyways don’t like me. I’m not fun to be around and I have no intention of changing that bc I just can’t. I get drained easily and if I pretend to be someone I’m not, I’ll get exhausted in a short while.
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Just curious. Idk if daily is the norm bc I think lately I visit here like everyday. I could spend a few hours here or a few mins. It depends I guess. If I find smth new that I like, then it’s hours bc I try to binge-read it. But if it’s just updates, then I don’t stay here for long.
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Idek how to get interested in reading actual novels. I just feel like manwha/manga are way better because it gets to the point quickly and it can have everything… it can be goofy, dark, romantic all in one sometimes. I just feel like novels are too serious and it’s hard to even find recs easily. I don’t find Goodreads useful. But here… it’s easy to find manwha/manga recs. I wanna get into reading, but idk how to even tho I clearly do like stories
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I know it’s cringe to post this but idk where else I can ask for advice. I would prefer advice from someone in their 20s. :
I’m so used to consuming all this media (shoujo, josei, yaoi, basically any kind of romance/intimacy) to cope with the fact that I’ve never been liked/wanted irl. I’ve lately been trying to stay off this site so I can be more productive. And the worst part is this shouldn’t even be my top concern bc I still gotta learn how to drive, prepare for grad school, work hard at my job but I just don’t. I don’t have the drive. I just feel what’s the point of life if I’m never special to someone. I also have no friends. I just have trouble getting along with people. Convos with ppl online feel bland (usually I’m the one asking questions and it’s more they just answer me) and no one anyways cares like they don’t text first ever and irl people don’t like me bc I have social anxiety so I’m serious/awkward/quiet. I’m just down about life. I got no personality too like no hobbies bc I’m always stressed and heck even food doesn’t make me happy ever. I’m 23 and I’ve never ever been romantically liked by someone (someone did approach me once and we just talked for a while but I didn’t know his intentions until he asked what are we and I rejected him and he admitted he asked me bc he was lonely + he apparently was talking to other people and another time a guy approached me with a pickup line but it was really unnerving bc he was scrutinizing my face even my side profile). I see others my age in relationships (and I’ve seen others clearly have someone interested in them like people were flirty or always trying to talk to them/be near them) and some are in serious relationships like they wanna eventually marry each other. I’m also really sad about my looks like I feel the only way to be “chosen” I guess by a guy is to be goodlooking and sure maybe I could find someone who would think “ok you don’t look terrible I don’t mind dating” but usually it’s being goodlooking that makes guys think of the relationship as serious/long-term and they’re just far more interested. Yes I shouldn’t center my life around male validation and I sound very immature. But I wish someone would be excited talking to me.
I’m so used to consuming all this media (shoujo, josei, yaoi, basically any kind of romance/intimacy) to cope with the fact that I’ve never been liked/wanted irl. I’ve lately been trying to stay off this site so I can be more productive. And the worst part is this shouldn’t even be my top concern bc I still gotta learn how to drive, prepare for grad school, work hard at my job but I just don’t. I don’t have the drive. I just feel what’s the point of life if I’m never special to someone. I also have no friends. I just have trouble getting along with people. Convos with ppl online feel bland (usually I’m the one asking questions and it’s more they just answer me) and no one anyways cares like they don’t text first ever and irl people don’t like me bc I have social anxiety so I’m serious/awkward/quiet. I’m just down about life. I got no personality too like no hobbies bc I’m always stressed and heck even food doesn’t make me happy ever. I’m 23 and I’ve never ever been romantically liked by someone (someone did approach me once and we just talked for a while but I didn’t know his intentions until he asked what are we and I rejected him and he admitted he asked me bc he was lonely + he apparently was talking to other people and another time a guy approached me with a pickup line but it was really unnerving bc he was scrutinizing my face even my side profile). I see others my age in relationships (and I’ve seen others clearly have someone interested in them like people were flirty or always trying to talk to them/be near them) and some are in serious relationships like they wanna eventually marry each other. I’m also really sad about my looks like I feel the only way to be “chosen” I guess by a guy is to be goodlooking and sure maybe I could find someone who would think “ok you don’t look terrible I don’t mind dating” but usually it’s being goodlooking that makes guys think of the relationship as serious/long-term and they’re just far more interested. Yes I shouldn’t center my life around male validation and I sound very immature. But I wish someone would be excited talking to me.