This isn't really really related to your question... but when I was younger, I used to keep a diary and just write down everything that was weighing on my mind... then my sister read it and I haven't done it since. I also haven't read what I wrote again since then because I was so embarrassed that my sister had seen it all.
She also used to say sh...... reply
Older, introvert, depressed, sleep deprived, grumpy, muscular, black cat uke ...preferably with a puppy/crybaby, clingy etc...seme
Oh, and I also love gap moe reply