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So I know writing this here is a bit funny, but here I go;
I got rejected from two colleges because my grades were too low despite meeting the basic requirements and I feel miserable right now.
I studied science for my first year, but my experience was miserable and I ended up failing most of my classes. Which is funny because I thought I was so prepared when I finished high school. I had good grades, but in college I struggled with heavy anxiety and depression that lead me to think I was dying half the time so I barely went to my classes. My mom also got shot my first week of starting so additional stress.
Then I switched to art, because I loved it and it helped me so much, but I dropped out my second week due to too many changes in my family life. The dynamics were changing and it was getting worse and worse.
I worked for a while, until I went to another college to study design, I think I wanted to prove that I was a "good" student and capable of doing something. Not being a screw up.
My first semester went extremely well, I had no grades under 90. But the second one I fell apart. My mom suddenly left and nearly got killed in our country of origin. She left me with a man she didn't love anymore. Next thing I knew I was taking care of my little brother. My loans were going to feeding the house. I was stressed out of my mind and I dropped out to find work.
I wanted so bad to restart studying art. I loved it and that's one of.the only thing regret in my life. But I screwed up and now I don't know what to do. No school would take a inconsistent student like that.
Im turning 21 next month and all my friends are in school and I'm falling behind. Most of them will get there bachelor's soon and I don't have anything to show for myself. I also want to study a subject thats not even in a good place right now with AI and the state of world. My dream seems so far right now.
I'm really such a failure...
I got rejected from two colleges because my grades were too low despite meeting the basic requirements and I feel miserable right now.
I studied science for my first year, but my experience was miserable and I ended up failing most of my classes. Which is funny because I thought I was so prepared when I finished high school. I had good grades, but in college I struggled with heavy anxiety and depression that lead me to think I was dying half the time so I barely went to my classes. My mom also got shot my first week of starting so additional stress.
Then I switched to art, because I loved it and it helped me so much, but I dropped out my second week due to too many changes in my family life. The dynamics were changing and it was getting worse and worse.
I worked for a while, until I went to another college to study design, I think I wanted to prove that I was a "good" student and capable of doing something. Not being a screw up.
My first semester went extremely well, I had no grades under 90. But the second one I fell apart. My mom suddenly left and nearly got killed in our country of origin. She left me with a man she didn't love anymore. Next thing I knew I was taking care of my little brother. My loans were going to feeding the house. I was stressed out of my mind and I dropped out to find work.
I wanted so bad to restart studying art. I loved it and that's one of.the only thing regret in my life. But I screwed up and now I don't know what to do. No school would take a inconsistent student like that.
Im turning 21 next month and all my friends are in school and I'm falling behind. Most of them will get there bachelor's soon and I don't have anything to show for myself. I also want to study a subject thats not even in a good place right now with AI and the state of world. My dream seems so far right now.
I'm really such a failure...
about read manga
So I'm absolutely fuming at a manwha I was reading recently ( missing pepper case) and needed to vent and wanted to create for other people to vent too :)
So here we go;
WTF !?! WHY ARE THIS DUMBASSES SO STUPID? COMMUNICATION WHERE??? It's like I was transported to another universe where talking honestly about your feelings and listening to the other person about your feelings is illegal. Why is this bozo rapist still on my fucking screen ? Oh, so, why autor have you suggested a THREESOME ?? Are you demented ? Is something wrong with you ? Seokjun displaying shojo protagonist level backbone over here and Chani chani is a dickhead, but still a uke in a seme dominated field.
Im so tired of stories doing this. Genuine ragebait fr.
Why is there so much assault, sexual assault, harassment, sexual harassment, rape and stalking everywhere im getting so sick and tired of it.
Gonna get slightly political here, but in the wake of Epstein fiasco, I had to genuinely have a reconsideration of how I engage with media. I was more on the " it's fiction" side, even though I was unco with some things and my own trauma and had to realize how unkind I was being to myself and other victims.
People complain about lgbtq+ stuff being everywhere and refuse to engage with the fact that so much media we consume is filled with the most depraved stuff a human can do to another human. It got me thinking of why do we allow this in the first place, also why is it so goddamn repent in romance in general ( gay, straight). It's honestly getting to me and I'm getting sick to my stomach with, espace since it's rarely made in a respectful or real way.
It's more like reading the authors fetishes and them getting away simply disrespecting everyone's time and especially victims to get themselves and other creeps like themselves off.
Also, if you were a victim of any of those things, you matter, your story matters and you deserve respect. Your experience shouldn't be treated as a laughing matter nor a fetish. It is deeply traumatizing and you deserve better representation and thoughtfulness. This world is mad evil, but continue to believe there is good and to demand that your experience be shown with love and care.
But basically what I'm getting at is that this manwha pissed me off so much, it got me interrogation the media landscape as a whole.
( sorry for any mistakes)
So here we go;
WTF !?! WHY ARE THIS DUMBASSES SO STUPID? COMMUNICATION WHERE??? It's like I was transported to another universe where talking honestly about your feelings and listening to the other person about your feelings is illegal. Why is this bozo rapist still on my fucking screen ? Oh, so, why autor have you suggested a THREESOME ?? Are you demented ? Is something wrong with you ? Seokjun displaying shojo protagonist level backbone over here and Chani chani is a dickhead, but still a uke in a seme dominated field.
Im so tired of stories doing this. Genuine ragebait fr.
Why is there so much assault, sexual assault, harassment, sexual harassment, rape and stalking everywhere im getting so sick and tired of it.
Gonna get slightly political here, but in the wake of Epstein fiasco, I had to genuinely have a reconsideration of how I engage with media. I was more on the " it's fiction" side, even though I was unco with some things and my own trauma and had to realize how unkind I was being to myself and other victims.
People complain about lgbtq+ stuff being everywhere and refuse to engage with the fact that so much media we consume is filled with the most depraved stuff a human can do to another human. It got me thinking of why do we allow this in the first place, also why is it so goddamn repent in romance in general ( gay, straight). It's honestly getting to me and I'm getting sick to my stomach with, espace since it's rarely made in a respectful or real way.
It's more like reading the authors fetishes and them getting away simply disrespecting everyone's time and especially victims to get themselves and other creeps like themselves off.
Also, if you were a victim of any of those things, you matter, your story matters and you deserve respect. Your experience shouldn't be treated as a laughing matter nor a fetish. It is deeply traumatizing and you deserve better representation and thoughtfulness. This world is mad evil, but continue to believe there is good and to demand that your experience be shown with love and care.
But basically what I'm getting at is that this manwha pissed me off so much, it got me interrogation the media landscape as a whole.
( sorry for any mistakes)
about question
Your girl is going to be able to finish her art degree !!!
As long as im able to pass 50% or more of my classes so I really have to lock in haha.
Planing also on moving out in student dorm !! But don't have any money saved up and I have to wait until my paycheck to put the down payment( hope i can still get in, the school is a bit far and i have a pretty bad experience with commuting far, not making the same mistake3 times ). I wasn't expecting it lol so now I have to save as much as humanly possible.
Just a small update because I posted a while ago when I got rejected at an another school and was really in a low point in my life, but hey I got a job at an art expo and I'm now officially going back to school in the fall.
Now I'm stressing, because money, probably moving and have to pass my classes or I'm out ( I have a terrible track record). Pray for me guys, I don't want to mess this up. Hope I become a professional artist in the future !!! Who knows, might draw some life altering, culture changing art.
As long as im able to pass 50% or more of my classes so I really have to lock in haha.
Planing also on moving out in student dorm !! But don't have any money saved up and I have to wait until my paycheck to put the down payment( hope i can still get in, the school is a bit far and i have a pretty bad experience with commuting far, not making the same mistake3 times ). I wasn't expecting it lol so now I have to save as much as humanly possible.
Just a small update because I posted a while ago when I got rejected at an another school and was really in a low point in my life, but hey I got a job at an art expo and I'm now officially going back to school in the fall.
Now I'm stressing, because money, probably moving and have to pass my classes or I'm out ( I have a terrible track record). Pray for me guys, I don't want to mess this up. Hope I become a professional artist in the future !!! Who knows, might draw some life altering, culture changing art.