long story short Murano is people’s pleaser and the type that gets pressured by society’s norm. and the jealousy towards okkamisan probably leads to dependency and comfort place for him and maybe to the extent he loves him but in denial since it is not fits to the society, having same sex love. thus, he is pressured that he hurt himself cz he wants to be with ookamisan but he rather die(?)
the story telling and the charac for me personally r greater that some manga or manhwa that r fucking long just for their author to milk with cliche tropes that r inteded for the general mass consumers but this tho inteded to be a fap material still got the messeage thorugh yk im so bad with words it has that emotion rather than just the lukewarm immitations that some manhwa gives. i cant really express it with word cuz im bad at it but its good if u just analyze it deeper but let me say one thing if this was shounen ai this would be a whole different story likeeee