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she is so awfully relatable that it feels like i'm reading something about me
2022-10-31 16:28
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Chp 65- I can't explain how amazing this story is.... Beyond words. Although I personally do not share the exact situations or fully understand mc and ml in their pain. I can try. The writing allowed me to empathize because the emotions felt familiar to me even when the process to reach them are different. Even if at the end of binge reading now all I remember are emotions and blured images of the impactful scenes this is probably one of the best written stories I have ever read to date. I only wish I could recommend it to other to read without worry. But I worry it may trigger some so I won't and hope they find this on their own and read it.
I have always been a bit ... Sad? But I myself have never gone through with s******* or self**** I have found the thought of that not quite right. I have imagined it but honestly what I have wanted more is a button for non-existence. The one that can reassure your leaving affected nothing and no one.
I spent years of my life... Ok? I could handle my downs and feel a bit better after being sad. I spent years crying at anytime I have extreme emotions as lashing out felt like too much.
A few years ago I had the lowest down I reached out and got some help at the time which helped for a bit I think? Then a bit after I felt ok I fell on the job off some steps maybe a few feet off the ground. I don't and never did remember how I fell I just remember being on the ground and my ankle hurting. I didn't know what to do and at some point was in the car wanting to just drive myself home having a panic attack and crying. I called my dad and he said go to the er. So I did. Thankfully I didn't break any bones but I did hurt my ankle pretty bad and because of some insurance issues... And a bunch of months related to job place injury stuff I didn't get better.
I had workers comp at first thinking it was ok... Then because of paper work issues for weeks and weeks and constant phone calls over and over with nothing getting solved. I have no insurance and no disability and no government help. This was 2? Years ago?
During this time I did have help untill I lost insurance regarding two session for physio and some mental help with meds which I think helped for the time? But then I lost insurance because I could no longer work and because paperwork's never got sorted thanks to old job issues I never got the extended help I could have from government or disability. My mental state has degraded over time and possibly gotten worse this past year.
Since the ankle injury caused a flare up in my body's immune response I have been left with diagnosed symptoms of fibromyalgia which is the one I believe I deal with the most ATM? I have been able to do part time jobs recommend to me by family for a period of times over the past few years which have been nice so I had some sense of independence regarding buying things myself. I am lucky I have my family who allow me to live in the household and also help me with food. I also have a fur son Pepper...he's the best. My mental state I am aware has gotten more severe lately this past year my anxiety and panic seem to explode easily outdoors so I think I have spent 90% easily of my days indoors and mostly in my room. I can do very small walks down the street when I need too but care rides and going out to do things honestly freaks me out and I get pretty bad car sickness. So I tend to avoid going out when I can. The worst mentally though is that I am aware I ghost people I regard as friends. That I am aware I would rather read and ignore reality and the thoughts in my head. Real escapism. Physically it's hard some days to do 1000 steps. My hands have gotten a lot worse so even typing all this out on my phone hurts quite a bit honestly. I want to do art but because I kept putting off practing because of my anxiety I am now further in my head trap of knowing my output will never be as good as my visuals I want to show that I see in my head. That and my whole body hurting honestly makes it hard to paint or do art for longer than 5-10m.... Seeing what I want to draw .. paint... Make... For 3 years and feeling even more so like I can't do the only thing I had left going for me is pretty rough. I have thought about the non existence button again. I am not quite sure what to think about it other than I have a headache thinking about all of this rather than just ignoring it like usual and wanting to read.
I do not know why I wanted to share a jumbled non edited mess of my thoughts here of all places but I liked this story.. I like these characters. They feel real. Thank you to those who worked on this and the translators who helped share.
If you read my mass of text I don't know you but thank you for taking the time to read this and I want you to know that In this moment of typing this I truly hope that you the reader can find a reason to feel even a bit happier today and that even if you don't smile it's ok.
2022-04-21 09:11
Tags: #f+m #Cute #Fangirl #Autism
They are so autistic and I love it!!
3/5/22 Thank you for uploading!
2022-02-07 02:12
Tags: #Autism #Seinen
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2021-03-13 17:23
Tags: #Psychological #Mental Illness #Autism #Romance #Slice of Life #Drama #Family #Abuse #Bullying #Depression #Seinen #Asperger Syndrome
Ch. 30
You motherfucker come back and make a new chapter right now.
2020-10-13 19:39
Tags: #Hetero #Disability #Mental illness #Suicide #Abuse #Favourites #Underrated #Psychological
Wow, this definitely turned into one of my favourites. I think MC is so understanding though, kudos to him!